haihz. i dunno wads with me but i feel super lethargic and down i guess. its like im walking arnd in a daze with this haze of lethargy over me. but when i came home and lay down and closed my eyes i was like so not sleepy. dunno wads wrong with me lah. its like there is nothing to look forward to and not just tt. its just like im in a glass bubble. haihz. like during worship it was going through the same motions over and over again, and even before service the decentralized lcg was like blur. i pray but dun feel like i really mean what im mouthing. led cell group and was not convinced by what i was saying to the girls.its like im relying on what i know now because i dun feel anything. it was more of the same at cell grp part 2. sighz. whats wrong with me!?!?!?!?!? maybe its like some sat thing haha. cos looking back at my entries the last time i was down was last sat. i dunno lah. there are so many things weighing me down but when i think of wether i shld tell anyone abt it, i just cant bring myself to. the one person tt maybe i wun mind talking to will think im wierd haha. so yah. too bad lor. just try to sleep again and like maybe service tml will be better.

aiyah i have goals that i set for myself and i really hope to acheive them but right now i dun really care anymore. i just want to do something. anything! hiahz. i think im suffering from malaise haha.

and my fren just told me something gross. he tries to touch girls "accidentally" when dancing at clubs! EWW.

i wish i could talk to God. haha. hes the only one i can talk to and really feel ok telling everything to. but yet i feel really far frm Him now. haihz. anyway i dun think i act like a christian. help!